Put one foot in front of the other

I did it.  I broke the silence and sent an e-mail request to my prof for an appointment to go over my research proposal tomorrow.  It is the first step and I feel released, I feel able to work and finish it today because I've come out of hiding.  It was a gesture of trust in the universe, trust in me, and trust for my place within it.  I feel positive and it feels oh so good.  I am not trying to manipulate the situation, explain or beg -- I'm just showing up as plain, worthy me.